hmmm let me recall how i got to know him....
It's was the first day of a new start for me at MDIS,
Zi yang and i went in without knowing anyone.
We were very excited about who we gonna meet at that moment, entered the class slowly and quietly not wanting to make an entrance which would make us the main focus, we sat down somewhere at the back of the rows and started to to look around.
And the first person that appeared friendly enough to approach was him, Vincent leong gou wei.
I never thought he would enter my life and share my emotions. With him around everything was much more enjoyable.
since then we became great pals, to me he was like a good friend, an advisor and a brother.
he's been there when i needed support, during my break up , quarrels and relationship problems.
We were so close then, but now all this is had become is but nothing.
Nothing but a broken friendship.
Now from him i can only feel that unfamiliar stranger aura, i can't share my emotions with him anymore i just can't.
what he has given me is nothing but disappointments and more disappointments, to an extent which i can no longer tolerate so i began to withdraw myself from him.
Ever since then my life went back to normal, life without my once "best buddy" has been more normal then ever.
Bad news spread fast!
people around me asked "why not give him a chance? maybe he's just busy with stuff?"
despite hearing all those, none succeed and all words falls deaf to me, my heart was just too numb to even react.
Thinking back, days when we were studying, the chalets nights, the shopping/movie/karaoke sessions, we even extent our trips oversea to Genting and not leaving out all those late nights "men talks" over at each other house.
Makes me feel sympathetic, if you asked me "why not amend this friendship ?"
My reply to you will be "i wish to, but is that possible ? will our friendship grow back the same ?"
all those doubts and question marks held me back.
I'm happy with what i have now :) just afraid that having him back will bring back the unwanted "disappointments"
Am i too "selfish" ? or am i just "afraid" to make the first move
But no matter what lies in the future, YOU have already left your foot prints ! old buddy just hope you are doing fine :)
take care k !
Our "gay" outing
Vincent's Big Day ! :D
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